see how long our swan song can last

you're the only one

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 03:52:37 GMT

I don't understand how people can feel like they need another human to "complete" them. If we never meet someone worth marrying, are we "incomplete" for our whole lives? I just can't believe that I have to find someone to make me a whole person..that depresses me. I'm complete all on my own and I really pity those who feel only another person can make life worthwhile. Don't me wrong..finding a good person to spend time with is amazing and being in love is something everyone should experience. But we shouldn't have to define our happiness and contentedness with life according to our relationship status.

In other news..mmm Lucas<3

I'm kinda feeling like maybe it's time for a tattoo. It's definitely an addiction.

there's just no getting over you

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 02:57:19 GMT

I just don't understand..
when I could pretend you didn't exist,
I was fine.

But now, I think about you
all the time
and hope you do the same.

I'm almost sure you do the same.

nothing's clear and nothing's right

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 01:06:46 GMT

I'm so done with this college thing it isn't even funny.
I've already missed a class..
I'm gonna fight my psych teacher..
Parking sucks. The only place to park is the garages, but it takes FOREVER to get out of them because people don't know how to drive..
This dumb NewPage class is a total waste of time and money..
I almost die every day driving on Hampton Blvd.

Some things aren't so bad though.
I met a cute boy..
Beth's in my psych class & Jessica's in Spanish with me..
I'm a huge fan of my sociology teacher.
--------------------------------------------------------------------

So far the bad outweighs the good. We'll see how the next few weeks go I guess.

she's such a fortunate fool; she's just too good to be true

Sun, 13 Aug 2006 20:13:23 GMT

Get away from me
Get away from me, this isn't gonna be easy
But I don't need you
Believe me
You got a piece of me
But it's just a little piece of me
_And I ^don't need _anyone

And these days I feel like I'm fading away
Like sometimes when I hear myself on the radio
Have you seen me lately?
Have you seen me lately?
I was out on the radio starting to change
Somewhere out in america, it's raining
Could you tell me one thing you remember about me
And have you seen me lately?

I remember me
And all the little things that make up a ~~memory~~
Like he said he loved to watch me sleep
Like he said:
It's the breathing, it's the breathing in and out and in and....

I guess I thought that someone would notice
I guess I thought somebody would say something
If I was missing

i've come to tell you that she's evil

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 22:16:15 GMT

I'm convinced you just like being pissed at me. What's the point in making up reasons to be mad at me? So pull the stick out of your ass and be my friend again.

In other news, Allyson Renee Dover owns my heart ♥ Fuck that stupid skank ass bitch, she'll get what's coming to her in the form of an STD :]

i hate mostly everyone, but most of all i hate you

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 21:29:08 GMT

No one can keep a secret.

The list of people I can stand to be around shortens every day.
But whatever, the ones that matter most are fabulous as always.

I realized the other day that the little kids at dance don't suck nearly half as much as I thought they did..they actually pretty much made my night :]

lately we're running out of time

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 23:51:44 GMT

Sometimes I think I look for trouble..
and I ~~usually~~ always find it.
As long as trouble comes in the form of
something remotely as cute as you,
I don't mind.
-----------------

As much as I'd like to be done with high school, I'd like this year to slow down..please and thank you♥

..hold onto these moments as they pass..

but we shared a moment that will last till the end

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 21:50:25 GMT

I don't know how many times I need to say this before I finally understand it but I always end up right where I started..but I'm not complaining about it this time.<3

you touched my heart, you touched my soul,
you changed my life and all my goals.
and love is blind but then i knew it,
my heart was blinded by you.

i've kissed your lips and held your head.
shared your dreams and shared your bed.
i know you well, i know your smell.
i've been addicted to you.

no one else needs to understand.. no one else even needs to know. ♥

I swear that I don't have a gun

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 23:56:34 GMT

So I'm hating everything today..thus, the reason for this less-than-cheerful entry.

I know I'm a dumb girl [just like every other girl] but at least I can admit to it..and I've decided that I'm not letting you drag me along anymore. I want to wait for you, but I won't. If we happen to fit together sometime in the future, then great, but I will not abandon other opportunities because I'm stuck on you.

excuse me please, one more drink. could you make it strong? cause i don't need to think. he broke my heart, my grace is gone. one more drink and i'll move on.

This weekend, I'm taking matters into my own hands. I will forget that I'm the biggest coward ever and go for it..and I will forget my stupid pride and apologize. I know I can't take back what I did, but you've got to forgive me sometime.

i am no hero, that's for sure. but i do know one thing - is where you are, is where i belong. i do know where you go is where i wanna be.

Quitting is a process..wish me luck.

you'll be with me like a handprint on my heart

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 03:23:42 GMT

Theese days it seems like the simplest, most random
train of thoughts can initiate an inundation of tears..

James Blunt's "You're Beautiful"
[makes me think of]
subways
[which are in NYC]
NYC will be your home next year
[and it's more than 300 miles away]

I can't help but feel like this weekend marks the beginning of the end.

it ended bad, but i love what we started

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 03:20:17 GMT

No worries..I'm back to being tough girl.

I can't help but wonder what if...
but I don't want to ruin what we already have.
I'm sick of being scared all the time,
but look at what happens when I take a chance.
I don't think it's worth it.

------------------GENERAL INFO------------------
* Starting Time: 9:49 pm
* Name: krystle
* Nicknames: duck
* Starsign: cancer
* School: western branch
* Location: my house..the garage
* Color of eyes: brown
* Hair colour: brownish-red
* Shoe Size: 81/2, 9
* Brothers/Sisters: 3 brothers, 1 sister
* You live with: my parents & siblings

------------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
* Missed school b/c it was raining: yeah
* Put a body part on fire for amusement: negative
* Thrown someone in the bonfire: no!
*Been hurt emotionally: ugh..who hasn't?
* Kept a secret from everyone: yep
*Cried during a Movie: yes
*if so what film: LOTS
*Ever thought an animated character was hot?: i dunno..that danny phantom is pretty cute....
* Been sarcastic? always

------------------FAVORITES------------------
* Shampoo: doesn't really matter
* Soap: dove..the pink kind
* Fav colour/shade: pink & green
* Summer/Winter?: if you ask me in winter, i'll say summer..and vice versa
* Favourite cartoon Characters: spongebob
*Favourite anime Characters: um, no thanks
* Drink: sweet tea, dr. pepper
* Food: macaroni and cheese, pizza
* Movies: "closer" is my absolute favorite right now
* Ice Cream: strawberry
* Subject: english

---------------RIGHT NOW------------------
* Wearing: navy blue trashbag pants, white cami, Beatles zip-up hoodie
* What color underwear/boxers: grey
* Nail polish: none
* Eating: nothing
* Thinking: i hate being sick

---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
* Cried: nope! my lapse of tough-ness was shortlived :] as was the relationship..
* Met someone new: nah
* Cleaned your room: hah NO
* Drove a car: yes
* Been pissed off: hell yeah

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------
* Yourself: i try
*santa: no
*angels: absolutely
*elves: no
*intelligent life in space: yeah
* ghosts: yep

--------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
* Do you have a soul mate? not that i've met
* Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no
* Who have u known the longest of your friends: megan
* The loudest: morgan
* The shyest: i don't have shy friends, really
* Who has seen you cry: all my closest friends..even darve
* When have u cried the most: about four years ago
* What is the best feeling in the world?: i don't even know

---------ABOUT GUYS FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT---------
* Boxers or briefs: boxers
*Long or short hair: whatever works..i tend to favor long-haired boys though
* Six pack or muscular arms: arms
* Good or bad guy: bad..always bad. at least i can kind of brace myself for heartbreak.
* Black or White: white
* Gangster or Punk: neither
* Accent or not: i'm going to marry someone with an accent of some kind
* Immature or mature: mature
* Funny or not funny: funny duh
* Cute or sexy: mm..both

--------FOR EVERYONE TO FILL OUT--------
* Silver or gold: white gold
* Diamond or pearl: pearl
* Sunset or sunrise: sunrise
* Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yeah, a big ass cow
* Have you ever broken/sprained/fractured something: sprained ankles
* Do you have any piercings? just ears
* Tattoos? yeaaah my gladiolus<3
* Rain, sun or snow?: sun for driving..rain for sleeping..snow for playing. pick one.
* How is the weather right now?: rainy and cold..not my favorite
* Currently listening to what song?: i'm watching law & order: svu

it's worth all that's lost just to see you smile ♥

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 19:24:54 GMT

so there's this boy.
and he makes me smile.
but just when i thought
things were perfect, you
had to step in, didn't you?

don't ruin this for me.

all you need is love

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 18:23:07 GMT

John Lennon
October 9, 1940 - December 8, 1980

imagine there's no heaven
it's easy if you try
no hell below us
above us only sky
imagine all the people
living for today

imagine there's no countries
it isn't hard to do
nothing to kill or die for
and no religion too
imagine all the people
living life in peace

you may say i'm a dreamer
but i'm not the only one
i hope someday you'll join us
and the world will be as one

imagine no possessions
i wonder if you can
no need for greed or hunger
a brotherhood of man
imagine all the people
sharing all the world

you may say i'm a dreamer
but i'm not the only one
i hope someday you'll join us
and the world will be as one

hold on to these moments as they pass

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 18:36:16 GMT

June 15, 2006 @ 4 PM.
I'm looking forward to graduation simply because it will mark the beginning of a promising summer:

grad week

eighteenth birthday

recital

nationals in South Carolina

more tattoos

a trip to Mexico

I'm not so excited about actually being graduated from high school because it marks the beginning of adulthood. I'm not such a huge fan of growing up.

I like your face, I like your body

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 04:16:32 GMT

"The hedgehog's dilemma states that the closer two beings come to each other, the more likely they are to hurt one another. This comes from the idea that hedgehogs have spines on their backs. If they come close to one another, their spines will hurt each other. This is analogous to a relationship between two human beings. If two people come to care about and trust each other, something bad that happens to one of them will hurt the other as well, and dishonesty between the two could cause even greater problems."

Girls are so silly. I include myself in this statement due to the fact that I don't learn from my mistakes ever. Maybe if you weren't so cute I could exercise a little self-control.

your lips next to mine make me think maybe heaven's where you are

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 01:50:14 GMT

I had forgotten what it was like to kiss someone and mean it. I'm glad it was you who reminded me.

If I needed someone to run my life for me, I'd ask. You don't get to yell at me for hanging out with people..in fact, you don't get to yell at me at all. I was friends with him long before you came into the picture and we'll be friends long after you're gone.

On a sillier note, pictures from this weekend..

some doucheface prevented our "Titanic" movie watching :[

I <3 Catherine

Bone & I know how to throw down

Allyson likes to put on a show

Sam is what we call a humorer ♥

These girls own my heart<3 <3

you're the only other half that makes me whole

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 01:36:41 GMT

Tonight while driving around engaging in an activity we both enjoy
immensely, my cousin says, "This right here is what I'm thankful for."
And I could not agree more. You just don't mess with us ♥

but for today, we'll wander and enjoy

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 02:04:44 GMT

Maybe this change in weather will provoke a [slight]change in some of my bad habits.

I'm dreading saying goodbye already..what am I gonna do when August comes?

I love it when I receive a call from someone I've been thinking about. Talk about meant to be ♥

This was random..lately I can't even follow one train of thought.

p.s. I think you're beautiful.

I feel I must interject here

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 03:39:42 GMT

I'm so annoyed with girls who pretend to be such free-spirits, yet agonize endlessly over boys who couldn't care less.

I'm so annoyed with people who don't want to work hard, but want to reap all the same benefits as the hard-workers. This won't be tolerated any longer.

I'm so annoyed that you exclude me and then try to make me feel bad about it.

I'm so glad there are a few people I can always count on.

I'm so glad I don't need anyone else to tell me what to be..I'm sorry you do.

I'm so glad some things never change, regardless of how much time passes.

I sometimes wonder if I picked the wrong one.
[and I think you do, too.]
Someday?

I will love you till the end

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 03:22:19 GMT

I would not trade anything for the time
we spend stuffing our faces with excessive
amounts of Mexican food. I love yall more than life.
[ps-I'm really stoked about our dance]

I'm not gonna lie - listening to Nicole's mother and grandmother curse at each other with their thick New York accents all night was the most amusing thing I've heard in awhile. I hope my mom and I are like that when we get old ♥

a change will do you good

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 04:11:30 GMT

i don't understand how anyone can ever be completely satisfied. i always feel like there's something i can make better about myself. am i the only one who thinks mediocrity isn't a goal worth accomplishing? how can things ever get better if you don't push yourself? i know everyone has moments of unmotivation, but what's the point in investing so much time in something you don't really give a damn about?

a new perspective..a new approach..and [hopefully]new results.
reinvention.
(you should look into it, too.)

dreams can be deceiving like faces are to hearts

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 01:31:45 GMT

Eclipse: To dream of an eclipse of the sun, forewarns of enjoying life in excess. Too much partying and too much drinking will lead to major health problems. You will experience temporary failure in business.

oh, fantastic.

i hope it stays this way - if not, i will be okay

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 01:53:11 GMT

This update is for David because he's pretty much my favorite ♥

I got teary-eyed at the Homecoming parade when the middle school cheerleaders' float rode past. I feel like I was on that float just yesterday, but it was four years ago and I'm going to graduate from high school in seven months. I'm pretty much trippin out over that.

So I don't care what anyone thinks about the whole situation..because yall don't even know. kthx<3

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
on my left middle finger: megan scratched me when we were about eight.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
yellow paint

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
it's silver and boring

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
i'm a big fan of angry white girl music lately

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
i think 8:43 pm

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING?
for things to work out alright. let's hope for the best.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS AT TIMES?
being little

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
my cd player, simply because of its purpose.

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
mmm..my mom's homemade vegetable soup.

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
yes

11. IF YOU DIED TOMORROW:
what kind of question is that? i'd be dead..and that would suck.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
i can't remember.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE/PERFUME?
ralph lauren

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
long usually. but whatever fits that person.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING TO SOMEONE?
i'm pretty much expecting to be proposed to..i'm no britney spears.

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
probably auston

20. DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
kind of spanish..but not really.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)?
i guess whatever joey gave me for valentine's day in eighth grade, haha.

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
it would depend on where the person was going. but i probably would because i pretty much roll like that.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
just tell them..what kind of questions are these? whatever douchebag made up these questions sucks at life.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
6

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
haha :]

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU THE MOST?
bad drivers

34. HAVE YOU EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
only about a million times.

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
i was on myspace.

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
liposuction

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
because i'm babysitting and bored.

42. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PIZZA?
either just cheese or everything.

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
cry, i guess.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
wow, that's a long ways a way.

45. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF IT SUDDENLY STARTED RAINING BLOOD?
pretty much be prepared to die or something..bloody rain wouldn't be a good sign.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
nope

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
no

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
the middle, duh

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
today

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
not usually.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
ham

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
i have a few vices.

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
none of them, really.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
probably not.

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
yeah, so have you.

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
i could lie and say no, but instead i'll be shallow yet honest and say yes.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
angry white girl music.

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
danceland.

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
no

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
barbies

61. WHAT CLASS IN SCHOOL DO YOU THINK IS TOTALLY USELESS?
a lot of them.

62. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL?
uh, obviously.

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
yes

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
not voluntarily.

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A BOY?
i hate answering that question. i don't "look for" anything. you just know when you look at someone.

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
duck

67. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
maybe one day.

68. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
nope, but i rarely wear shoes that require tying.

69. DO YOU THINK THAT YOU HAVE STRONG POINTS?
yeah

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
strawberry

71. What is your shoe size?
8.5/9

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
pink and green

73.HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
?

74. WHO DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
my mom

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
not really, no.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
law & order: svu on tv.

77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
mcdonald's

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
darve

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
lips & eyes

80. DO YOU LOVE THE PERSON WHO POSTED THIS?
i don't really know the person who posted this, but i'm sure he's fabulous.

81. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
exhausted

82. FAVORITE DRINK?
sweat tea and water

83. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
bud light

84.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
i like watching football now that i understand it.

85. HAIR COLOR?
brown

86. EYE COLOR?
brown

87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
yeah

88. SIBLINGS?
four.

89. FAVORITE MONTH?
november

90. FAVORITE FOOD?
macaroni and cheese

91. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
harry potter and the chamber of secrets.

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
hm..easter.

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
not really, i just think boys should do it.

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
tough..but i think winter.

95. HUGS OR KISSES?
kisses

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE-NIGHT STANDS?
right now, i'm going with neither.

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
shut the hell up.

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
!

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING RIGHT NOW?
harry potter and the sorcerer's stone for the bajillionth time.

100. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
raindrops

101. FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
mall madness! which i'm getting for christmas.

102. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
law & order.

103. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
i think about how much i hate whatever function i'm waking up for [usually school] and plot a way to get out of doing it. but eventually i get tired of all that thinking, so i get my lazy ass out of bed and shower.

it is your grace that i want to fall right into now

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 04:43:31 GMT

Why is every boy I know either:
a) a slut
b) an attempted rapist
c) completely obsessed
d) almostperfect [but I'm too chickenshit to do anything about it.]

I'm not gonna lie: I thoroughly enjoy our newly-formed, not-quite nightly, ritual.

If you have called me repeatedly and I have repeatedly ignored your calls, stop calling me. I promise I don't want to talk to you.

It annoys me when unattractive people brag about how much they get hit on. Don't even lie.

I'm undecided about you again

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 02:57:59 GMT

there's solace a bit for submitting
to the fitfully cryptically true
what's happened has happened
what's coming is already on its way
with a role for me to play

i don't understand
i'll never understand
but i'm trying to understand